Monday, June 11, 2018

unequipped


Ever since you left, I’ve been depressed
I can’t look in the eyes
Or speak my mind
Suddenly I’m unequipped
For the daily grind

Ever since you left, I’ve been failing
I can’t hold my head up
Or find interest
Suddenly I’m unequipped
For commitment

I wish I could just go back
Rewind time, erase this grief
that’s been stuck in my mind
I wish I could hold your hand
One last time, embrace your touch
That I miss so much

Ever since you left, I’ve been so bored
I can’t leave my room
Or see my friends
Suddenly I’m unequipped
To make amends

I wish I could just go back
Rewind time, erase this grief
that’s been stuck in my mind
I wish I could hold your hand
One last time, embrace your touch
That I miss so much

You put your headphones on and play your favorite song
As you build your wall with rocks of isolation
You lay your head in the hands of defeat
Too young to have this innocence fleet
Like the stars in the sky, you’re not alone
You’re not alone, not alone

I wish I could just go back
Rewind time, erase this grief
that’s been stuck in my mind
I wish I could hold your hand
One last time, embrace your touch
That I miss so much


Thursday, April 12, 2018

victimized


yellow bleeds from your pores
the sun lies deep within your eyes
don’t analyze, let your soul guide
you through these tough times

don’t let these tears glide
don’t let the salt erode your exterior
don’t run away, you’re a warrior   
escape from the downside

you cannot be paralyzed, don’t be traumatized
hold on to your pride and let your light shine
you cannot be terrorized, don’t be brutalized
i wanna see you rise and not be victimized

drive fast in your car
windows down, your breakthrough
tragic visions in the rearview
no more inhibition   

you cannot be paralyzed, don’t be traumatized
keep the bright in your eye, don’t vilify
you cannot be terrorized, don’t be brutalized
i wanna see you rise and not be victimized

you’re a gifted spirit, your energy wild
let your aura shine, let your fears unwind
harness the light from within
break down the barrier
that keeps you in

you cannot be paralyzed, don’t be traumatized
hold on to your pride and let your light shine
you cannot be terrorized, don’t be brutalized
i wanna see you rise and not be victimized

Tuesday, March 6, 2018

tough love

your aura glows like an amber flare
calling for search and rescue
but the flames have burned out
sending smoke but no help
and it's fucking dark out there

your smile fades deep into your soul
like your body into your bed
but you're cold and alone
confused and ungrown
and it's fucking dark out there

where did you go? you can't sleep all day
you're converting to a fragment of doubt
where did you? don't turn away
you can't outrun the truth

i'll give you that tough love, ain't it a bitch
i'll be the first one, to call out your shit
it's that tough love that we run from
to escape from the truth and not bandage the wound

your losing your grip, it's hard to hold on
your grasp is weak, voice gets thin
but you can't stand up straight
or walk through the door
because it's fucking scary out there

where did you go? you can't drink all day
suddenly you forgot how to swim
where did you go? you can't runaway
its time that you face the truth

i'll give you that tough love, ain't it a bitch
i'll be the first one, to call out your shit
it's that tough love that we run from
to escape from the truth and not bandage the wound

when there's no right way, no wrong way; how are we supposed to find our way?
when your anguish is met with anguish you feel like you've hit a brick wall
you've been hit and pushed back down unsure that you could hold your ground.

i'll give you that tough love, ain't it a bitch
i'll be the first one, to call out your shit
it's that tough love that we run from
to escape from the truth and not bandage the wound

Monday, April 25, 2016

reflecting on coachella/music



I was a very singular person when it came to music. I held on to one artist and let her journey be the voice of my own. It worked. It was beautiful. I cried and the music cried, I laughed and the music smiled back. The act of listening to music was therapeutic, cathartic, numbing, exhilarating; each word flowed through my veins and I relished in a very singular connection with it. 

Cue Lana Del Rey. The turning point for me. She was forced into my life by a close friend of mine and I don’t think that friend realizes the door she opened. I was growing tired of the old and I didn’t even realize it. I was forcing personal anthems to define multiple milestones and tragedies in my life. I was holding on to a nostalgic feeling to bring comfort within comfort. Then I heard her hum and lyrics that were so damn unique and relatable. I took the dive into uncharted waters. 

I'm tired of feeling like I'm fucking crazy
I'm tired of driving 'till I see stars in my eyes
I look up to hear myself saying, baby
Too much I strive, I just ride

This is when I realized there was other music out there. Maybe in a world with so many options becomes a problem. There was too much for me to choose from so I just stayed listening to the same. With Lana came a fascination for discovering new music. I used to think only lyrics were relatable. How can a song with no words fuel passion, desire, heartache, lust, and an overall sense of euphoria? Well, the truth is… it fucking can. And boy does it. I quietly asked a few friends and family member’s to share their latest music passions with me. I wanted to experience as many new artists as I could.

Cut to January when the Coachella lineup was released. I knew I had to go, despite how much I bashed the festival in the past for everything I thought it stood for. M83, Chrvches, Borns, Ellie Goulding, Disclosure, etc... Coachella was one of the best weekends of my life. It took music from such a singular felling to a global feeling. What I thought would be crowds obsessed with themselves and people closed down to the outside was thousands of people feeling the same emotion at the same time. There was such a connection amongst everyone and music was that thread. So many different walks of life with so many stories to tell, merging with the music and letting the music take them home.

Music has such a new meaning to me now. Live music especially.